The past 2 weeks have been a blur. All of us were sleep deprived, forgetful, grieving, crying and just filled with sorrow. The wake and the funeral/burial was actually very beautiful. There were so many flowers that the church smelled like a garden in springtime. There were hundreds of people and it was really touching to see so many people who came to pay their respects. It was also so good to see our relatives, especially my mother's family who came all the way from Korea and who I have not seen in so many years. Laura was such a good girl and really brightened the whole mood and she was such a good escape from the sorrow. She is still too young to understand. It fills me with such sadness that she will not know my mother.